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Hey [Sun, May 6th ♥ 10:55pm] Ok. So it has been months sence I have writen in here. I dont know why I even descided to come on this time. but I did. Not to much has changed. I cant believe we r graduating soon. Crazy. I love life right now. I couldnt ask for more. I have to most amazing freinds. thank u all so much. I never thought I could be this Happy. Well I am going to bed goodnight =]] 1 ♥ // !!!

forever [Sun, February 4th ♥ 8:18am] I havent written in this thing sence septemeber. wow Not to much has changed. Shane and I became friends again. and then now were not. He continuess to lie to me and I am not going to deal with that shit. I have made a bunch of new friends and I am totally happy with myself. I dont want a guy right now. I have some of the best friend in the world. I love going to Valencia and hanging out with thoughs guys, the r the coolest people in the world. Amanda ari and I r so crazy. we always have a great time. making funny videos. and then of course Kayla. she is the best thing every. I love her to death. See I am happy right now. I am just scared. High School is almost over and it is time for college. My last summer at camp and then college. and which most of u dont know yet I am thinking about going to colorado for college. I need a change in my life. and I have GOT to get out of this house. and I cant afford a place in cali. But I will deff. come to visit as much as I can. Well I am off to Valenc !!!

erg boys [Fri, November 17th ♥ 2:08pm] everyday I learn shane is a bigger of asshole and a lier then I thought. I dont think that boy can tell the truth. FUCK sorry I am just mad at myself big time. !!!

So [Fri, September 15th ♥ 2:50pm] ya so like my life is so different from what is was 5 months ago. I am a senior now and I am almost an adult. A lot changed for me this summer and I was scared to see what was going to happen. Shane and I broke up and he was my whole life. He was everything to me. and now he is gone. I have to deal with that and it is ok now. My friends over the summer were their for me so much. It really showed me how much they actually care about me. I think I have done a good job dealing with everything with him. he is pretty much out of my life now. that is his choice. I told him I will always be thier and he doesnt ever call or talk to me so that is his loss. I am strong. I am having fun. though I miss the way things used to be I really get to see the real him and I just dont like it anymore. I need someone that is going to love me like i love them. Over the summer I know I leave all my friends at home and normally it feels weird to come home. but this time I felt welcome and it doesnt feel like i left everyone for 9 weeks. I am very happy with my life right now. I have some of the most amazing friends and so great full of that. thank u guys. !!!

My tues [Wed, August 30th ♥ 6:11pm] So like yesterday was so much fun. I went to Valencia to chill with my friends. I hungout with my friend chris for a couple of hours then went to my friends stephens work. Oh ya did I tell u he works for Zoey 101 and 24! ya well I went to Zoey 101 with him. I saw Jamie lyn Spears, I heard she hates Acting. And it seemed like it when she was leaving with her mom. I also got to hangout with Mathew(logan) Underwood and Paul(Dustin) Butcher. They are the koolest kids, they r so funny. it was so kool. I also got to see the set and stuff. Then i went to a venturing meeting and got Foster Freeze. YUMMY! So i dont talk to shane anymore. I dont know what his deal is. He says he wants me back. but he doesnt EVER talk to me. well that just proves how dumb he is. !!!

omg [Sat, June 3rd ♥ 11:33pm] So I dont drink I mean like at all but right now I feel like getting drunk cause they say it takes all ur problems away y the fuck am I like this 3 ♥ // !!!

[Fri, June 2nd ♥ 7:24pm] I Cant believe that someone would write a song about me. I just cant believe it it is one of the sweetest things anyone has ever done for me. Even though it isnt even all that cute of a song !!!

[Wed, May 31st ♥ 3:35pm] So yea. I have been really refecting on my life latly.  I have thought about how I spend so much time with Shane and not with all my other friends. I guess he just makes me so happy that I dont want to miss a minute of time not with him. But then again I am missing all the good times I could have with my friends. Sometimes I wish u guys liked shane more. then we could all hangout sometimes and i can get the best of both worlds. u know? So ya. I read tiffanys lj and it made me think about how much i really miss her. I remember when I was younger how I would hangout with her and tara all the time. everyday. they were my best friends. and now amanda is my best friend but still for some reason (sorry amanda) it doesnt feel the same with her as it did with them. i want the old them back. and i knew we would all change when we got older but I guess I never thought drugs would get in between us. I want to start opening up to other people again. I have closed up because I felt like I only needed one person and that person is shane. But i want to be happy all the time. So I want to start hangout with everyone again. I am leaving for camp the day after we get out of school. and yes i am going for a long time again. but for 2 weeks I am going to in In Alabama and Florida. Long story.( my mom moved back to Alabama). So ya. but when I get back from the summer camp. I want to have a bbq with a bunch of poeple over. and no drugs and no drinkning. Just like old times.  I want to try to bond with people again. Soon after that I am going to be 18 yrs. I cant believe it 18 and we r going to be seniors. I am going to have a party again. I dont know where or what I want to do. any ideas? but I want it to be really nice. cause i only turn 18 once. well i am going to go now i love everyone even if I dont show it. <33 !!!

[Mon, April 17th ♥ 9:47pm] Guys sick !!!

The best spring break ever<3 [Sun, April 16th ♥ 2:14pm] So as all of u should Know I went to Buras Louisiana with my Church. it was so much fun. I met some really kool people up there and made alot of new friends. It was so sad to see all the Trash and stuff, that used to be peoples things. it was really shocking and I opening. U really got to see how selfish some people were.  Alot of the house in the City of New Orleans were destroyed by the Flooding not the Hurrican itself. We went through alot of the Naborhoods and got to see thousands of houses. People would write things on there houses like. DO NOT DESTROY, WE WILL RETURN or FUCK FEMA or FUCK STATEFARM. it was really sad. Other houses had things on them saying that GOD is with them and they will be repayed for the damage. I really hope that brough other people to believe that too. I mean it says that in the Bible.  Anyway.  I guess the people in Louisiana think that FEMA stands for: Fix  Everything My Ass Well anyway. Our team of 42 people Cleaned 4 houses (Insided and out),  the Fire Station, and destroyed and rebuilt the Kitchen on the Church Property. This trip was so much fun and such a learning experence for every one. I think that everyone has a part of Buras in there Heart forever now. and I think that almost everyone of the 42 people that went on this trip with the church will at some point in there life return to Buras and that church. This was the best and I mean BEST spring break I could of ever asked for. and I think most people agree with me.   1 ♥ // !!!

ONE YEAR! [Sun, March 19th ♥ 9:43pm] Omg. this weekend was amazing. Shane and I had our One Year Annaversery. It was so great. We went to the Aquruim of the Pacific on Sat. It was alot of fun. Then we went to this dinner thing that his boy scout troop had. I got to see some people that I havent seen for a year. Shane is so amazing I am so glad that I am with him. No matter what we go through we always work things out. I LOVE U SHANE 2 ♥ // !!!

what up g [Tue, February 28th ♥ 9:08pm] So ya. I am so excited and nervius for tomarrow. Ah first swim meet of the season. vs. Camrillo. So amanda and I r going to Buras next month. YEAH! I cant believe it is like March tomarrow. CRAZY! well. g2g love u all !!!

Just lost in a dream that will never come true [Fri, February 17th ♥ 10:02am] [ mood | crushed ] I cant keep pretending to act a serton way. I am so sad in side right now and I dont think really anyone knows. I mean Amanda and Shane know a little but I just cant express it all to them because they wont understand. I just wish some people would see how they are and try to change. I am so sick of prettending that I am ok. I should have to. I should just tell him how I feel but I cant becuase I hate hurting people. He should know what to do and he should know how he should treat me. But he doesnt he is so fucking clueless. I jsut wish thigs could go back to the way they used to be in 7th grade (when I moved to my dads). things were so easy then. Well not but much but I think less painful then now. ::Sad:: 2 ♥ // !!!

[Sun, January 1st ♥ 11:10am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | I want to send the rest of my life with u by my side ] Colorado was fun! Here are some ( pic's. ) 3 ♥ // !!!

Kissing [Wed, December 14th ♥ 10:03pm] KISSING [x] on the cheek [x] on the lips [ ] on the butt [x] on their hands or fingers [x] in my room [x] in their room [x] of the opposite sex [ ] of the same sex [ ] in a different state [ ] a little younger than me [x] a little older than me [x] with black hair [ ] with curly hair [x] blonde hair and blue eyes [ ] with red hair [x] with straight hair [ ] shorter than me [ ] with a lip ring [x]who i truly love/loved [ ] who was drunk [ ] who was high [x] in the morning [x] right after waking up [x] just before bed [x] late at night [ ] who I had just met [ ] who I really didn't want to kiss [x] while i was going out with some else [x] on a bed [ ] in a graveyard [ ] at school [x] against a wall [ ] at a dance [ ] at a show [x] at the beach [x] in a pool [x] who was/is a good friend [ ] in the rain [ ] with an std [x] in a car/taxi/bus [ ] at a party [ ] on a plane [x] in the movies [x] in a bathroom [x] in the dark [ ] on a roof top [x] under water [ ] with a tongue ring [x] while driving [ ] who was dating someone [ ] a stranger [ ] more than one person at once [x] goodbye forever [ ] when i was drunk [ ] who didn't speak english [ ] in a firetruck [x] on a playground [x] on a bench [x] in a hot tub [x] in the ocean [x] on the floor [x] on a table [x] in the shower [ ] on a trampoline [ ] in the tubes at mcdonalds/burger king [ ] on a cruise [ ] in the snow [x] under the stars [ ] on a ski lift [ ] in an elevator [x] while chewing gum [x] on a chair [ ] completely naked [ ] under a waterfall [ ] in a hot air balloon [x] in the woods [x] on the ear [x] on the neck [x] upsidedown [x] at a red light [x] on a staircase [ ] under a staircase [x] while your sleeping [ ] on a rock jetti !!!

weird [Thu, December 8th ♥ 11:42pm] I saw a picture of him today. I havent seen him sence summer. He looked so happy. He never was like that with me. I am glad he is happy now, cause so I am. 2 ♥ // !!!

[Mon, October 24th ♥ 8:04pm] I edited my LJ so check out my page. there is a new background and everything <3333 1 ♥ // !!!

[Sun, October 23rd ♥ 10:48pm] I cant believe that Newbury bet Moorpark! That is crazy! So we r ranked number 1! woot woot !!!

[Mon, October 17th ♥ 8:04pm] Do u really feel the same? or have ur feelings change? I am falling apart, cause either u have changed or u just desided ur not going to show it anymore. !!!

[Mon, October 10th ♥ 10:35pm] I hate boys... I really do! 1 ♥ // !!!

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